Showing posts with label Substitute person. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Substitute person. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

I've been the substitute person all of my life

This is a line from the movie ElizabethTown. This line also struck a chord with me. It's how I feel a lot of the time. There are quite a few people in my life who make me feel like that is my role in their life. (Correction: I ALLOW them to treat me this way)

I understand that I would be the last person someone would call about getting together to go out. I mean, unless you think that coming to my house to hang out is fun (and let's face it, it certainly could be.....I can rock it like nobody's business!) I don't have any real opportunities to go out because I have my son and can't afford a babysitter so I can go out on the town.

However, I also feel like I'm the last resort for some friends for a phone call as well. I was recently FB instant messaging with a friend who all of a sudden disappeared from the conversation. No goodbye, no explanations, just gone...... Come to find out his girlfriend just got online so he'd rather talk to her. That's fine I guess, but don't I deserve a little consideration? Why am I supposed to sit around and wait for you to decide I'm worthy of your attention only to drop me as soon as someone better comes along?

I know I've been struggling lately with my self esteem and handling all the stress that has been coming my way lately, but I still know that I am worthy. I deserve to be important to someone. I deserve to be the first person someone wants to talk to or see, not the last.